just received news that someone from my distant family had passed away.and he is around my age.think he is only 20 or 21 this year.i think he was diagnosed with lukemia and he slipped into coma in the period around chinese new year and now,he is gone.i think life is so fragile.how will anyone know that he/she is ill?i guess most of the time,people only realised how ill they are when the symptons are obvious.so....don't you think life is extremely delicate?
i am afraid of death.i am.especially when illness strikes.i want to die in my sleep or something where there is no/not much pain.i don't want to be hooked up on life support or suffering all kinds of pain till i die.if i am suffering in pain,i think i will prefer to take euthanasia.i can't stand pain and besides,i think that if i am suffering,i think my loved ones will suffer more when they see me in pain.
so....i guess,the idea of death haven't make me think that much until something like this happen.so.i guess its time to really make sure that i live my life well.
